2005 in review…

December 31, 2005

i don’t know how to sum this year up other than to say it was more bad than not. sure, i went to more concerts this year than ever before (i may have seen more artists this year than the rest of my life combined!) but i’ve spent so much of it feeling worthless, unmotivated and just stoic.

the good:
*concerts - let’s see if i can remember them all…

amber dotson/dierks bentley/george strait;
uncle kracker (baaaaaaad)/gretchen wilson/kenny chesney;
shooter jennings (baaaaaaad);
jace everett/bobby pinson;
american accent/duncan sheik (baaaaaaad);
warren brothers/tim mcgraw;
charlie daniels band/jo dee messina;
branded/keith anderson;
randy travis.
and front-row-center at bill engvall, but that wasn’t a “concert”.

*the truck race at MIS.

*being able to watch wings games again!

*hitting “the magic number” i wanted to have in my bank account before i’d try to move (back in july/august or so, actually)… having thousands more in the bank this year than at this time last year… and actually making more respectable interest a month than with my old savings acct.

*making a huge dent in my apartment stash list and only shelling out about $2k to do it.

the bad:
*sc in october. what a… :evil:

*coming to the conclusion (yet again) that people seem to be friends with me for the wrong reasons.

*also concluding that since people that are IMO not attractive can get guys, obviously there’s something amazingly wrong with me. and for the record, i’m not saying that i think i’m good-looking… because if you knew me, you’d know how wrong that is. anyway, so keeping 45 pounds off for 6 years hasn’t worked… which means i should lose more (yes, i have more to lose) or save up for the cosmetic surgery i’ve wanted since like jr high (don’t ask, i won’t tell you… my parents don’t even know).

*having a sneaking suspicion that what i’m doing now isn’t what i want to do for the rest of my life… but having no idea what i’d do instead.

*”mr reliable”. i refuse to explain this. but some of you know what i’m referring to… :roll:

*everything related to the sprint car race at devos - that didn’t happen (including the race!)

*once again, not being able to tolerate the miserable winters of MI… knowing full well that i want out and theoretically having the funds to do it, yet convincing myself that nothing will be any better after i move.

and a rant:
can i just say for the record, once and for all, that guys who refuse to consider being with a girl that’s taller than them piss me off? (no, this is not some big ol’ sudden revelation of mine, i’ve thought it for years now. i don’t think most of you know how opinionated i am at pretty much everything… because i don’t say much.) most of the time, i feel like i get treated like i chose to be this tall or something. <sarcasm> oh… that’s right, i forgot to tell you all… i predetermined every trait of myself before i was born. more like a massive inferiority complex or somethin’…</sarcasm>

hopefully ‘06 is better than ‘05. if not, i don’t know what i’ll do… :???: *sigh*

  1. 2 Responses to “2005 in review…”

  2. I think if guys care so much that you are tall or what your weight is or whatever then they aren’t paying attention to things that really matter. I think you look great but even if I didn’t there’s so much more to you than what you look like. :smile:
    PS: I hope your 2006 is better than your ‘05.

    By Drew on Jan 2, 2006

  3. I’ve come to learn…that no matter what I say, you don’t listen…and you go with your first instinct…most of it all stems from that you are definately self conscious…you just care how you look and appear to others, and no matter what your told, your first impulse is how you feel, and it takes a lot to change it…that’s from what…7 years of knowing you now…lol

    By jared on Jan 3, 2006

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