frustrating
February 15, 2004i swear guys, i don’t know what it is. no matter what i do, i’ve been in just a foul mood for probably 2 months now. i mean, yeah, i have times here and there that “i’m happy”, but other than that, i don’t know… i just don’t want to bother caring and everything seems negative. it’s like… you know how anorexics don’t eat because it’s something they feel they can control? i wish i could find something like that - to feel like i can “control” something. and seeing everyone else have everything going for them, and feeling like i have very few things going for me… well, that doesn’t help either.
and then i feel like if i’m anything other than “myself” on aim or whatever, it’ll just annoy everyone and drive them away, so i’m pretty good at sucking it up to whoever i’m talking to.
One Response to “frustrating”
I am sorry that you have been in such a sad mood lately. I do know how you feel though, I get like that a lot too. Just so you know, you DO have a lot of things going for you! Your smart, your sweet, your pretty, you have an awesome sense of humor and you have a great family and some great friends. I’ve told you before how much I respect and admire you and I don’t mean for this to sound all high-and-mighty but I don’t give those praises to just anyone. And as far as driving people on AIM away, you could NEVER drive me away. Your one of my best online friends and I plan to keep it that way for a long, long time! {{{hugs}}}
By Drew on Feb 18, 2004